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Weekly Photo Challenge: Home – Fire at the Heart of the Tepee

For five winters and six summers. I had a tepee. I built it with help from my son, husband and granddaughter, but mostly, I built it myself. I never lived in it full-time. The lack of plumbing or electricity required I begin and end my day in the house, about 150 feet away. Nonetheless, the tepee was my home in a way no place before or since has ever been.

I peeled her poles with my draw knife, one pole at a time. I sanded them, sanded them again and coated them with water seal. Fourteen poles for a 12-foot tepee, 12 for support, and two to work the smoke flaps. Completing the poles took me the entire summer of 2007. While I peeled the poles, I thought about life, the meaning of things. When I was through peeling the poles, I painted the designs on the tepee door, based on drawings I found of old tepees. The front was a buffalo shield, and inside, I painted a big circle and filled it with a heavy coat of white paint. Then each member of my family dipped a hand in paint and pressed it into the circle so the tepee would know who lived in the house and would be at home in the tepee.

My granddaughter loved the tepee almost as much as I did. She spent many afternoons and nights with her own friends by the fire.

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Winters are very cold in New England, so I became one of the best and fastest fire builders you could imagine. Working from a stack of wood, I could produce a warm bright blaze in under  2 minutes. I was good. Speed was critical. With the snow falling all around the teepee and temperatures hovering around zero, you had to get the fire going very quickly or your hands would be too frozen to do it at all. And may I add that I don’t know about anyone else, but I can’t build a campfire while wearing gloves.

Tepees don’t need chimneys. The shape of the tepee is very efficient. If you have set the smoke flaps properly, the smoke will be drawn up and out, leaving the air in the tepee warm and  comfortably clean.

Once the fire was up, the teepee warmed quickly.  All I had to do was feed logs to the firepit and poke it occasionally, jiggling the logs to remind the fire to stay awake. My granddaughter and her friends became adept at keeping the fire too, so after a while, I felt comfortable trusting them to have a fire without supervision.

Above all, my favorite times were spent alone in the teepee by the fire. It got so warm even in the depths of winter I needed to keep the flap open, and sometimes had to sit partially outside because of the intensity of the heat.

The tepee, by the fire, was the most peaceful place I’ve ever known. Warmed by the fire, silent except for the crackling of the logs, I could lie there on one of the three beds covered with blankets and big feathery pillows and do absolutely nothing for hours at a time. It was pretty in the tepee. I had made a peace pipe and decorated it with leather and feathers. In a Navajo bowl, I burned sweet grass, sage and cedar which somehow increased the sense of peace and rightness.

The tepee survived well for those years, not at all bad for what is really nothing more than some sticks and canvas and when finally, the weather defeated my tepee, my son quietly took it down without requiring that I help dismantle it. I was grateful. I’m not sure I could have done it.

This was the fire at the heart of the tepee, forever and always my symbol of home. My home.


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My name is Marilyn and I’m Not Dead. Who the Hell Are You?

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My name is Marilyn but you can call me Teepee12. I am alive, if not entirely well. I plan to stay alive as long as the choice exists. I apologize in advance for any inconvenience my name or state of being might cause. Life is full of problems. Presumably my existence and name are not your biggest ones, so please deal with it yourself. I can’t help you. I lack the authority.

MarilynApr1948The other day I realized I’d gotten an award. I don’t remember which one it was, but it was addressed to Teepee12. I never intended to hide my identity when I chose this Internet ID as a username for my blog on WordPress. I chose it because I’d been using it since 2007 when my book was published. It was comfortable and familiar in an old shoe sort of way. Moreover, no one else seemed to want it and my real name was apparently heavily in demand.

I began using the Internet back in prehistory at the misty dawn of the space-time continuum. We were young then and modems ran at 1200 BPS. In those golden olden days, everyone had a “handle.” No one used real names. I began using Teepee12 after “The 12-Foot Teepee” was published and it stuck, though no one can spell it and auto-correct always changes it to Steeper (damn you auto correct!). I wish I could go back and do it over, using my real name or whatever close cousin to it I can get. There are dozens of Marilyn Armstrongs all over the Internet. Several of my namesakes died recently, so when I Googled myself yesterday, I found myself reading a lot of obituaries with my name on them. This can be weird or troubling, depending on the kind of books you read … but that’s the Internet for you.

I also discovered that I’m in my mid fifties (how nice!), have a Boston telephone number, own three houses, including one on Beacon Hill, and go by the Internet ID Marilyn00054. Hmm. Who’d have guessed? I’d like to see the place on Beacon Hill.

Doesn’t everyone Google themselves once in a while? No? You should try it if you haven’t.  You’ll be amazed — and possibly appalled — at some of the crap you find out there with your name on it, unless you have a particularly unique name. My husband and I both suffer from common-name-syndrome, which means without a picture ID, no one is sure what information pertains to either of us rather than someone — not us — of the same name. Even when it does pertain to us, it’s more often than not, wrong.

A friend of ours was trying to correct the Wikipedia entry about himself. It showed him working at jobs he never held, in states he’s never visited, much less worked in. Wikipedia wouldn’t let him make corrections. It told him he didn’t have sufficient credentials to correct the entry. Being himself was not enough. You need expertise and me being me, him being him, doesn’t count. Yet  I corrected a bunch of information about some movies we watch and my indicating that I have watched the movie a few times was apparently sufficient expertise for that. I don’t have a Wikipedia entry, so I don’t have to worry about it, but Garry’s brother does and I tried to correct it, but being close family doesn’t count as bona fides. Ah modern technology. Ah wilderness.

Being myself is insufficient evidence, your honor.

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Photo Credit: Deb Stone

We have reached the point that being oneself doesn’t matter to anyone but us. Our identity is defined by electronic documents collected by daemons. Robotic data collection programs using set parameters determine Truth. No human beings review the data. If you find errors, you cannot correct them because being you isn’t enough. Human knowledge has no authority. I’d probably find that scary if I weren’t so damned funny. I know a lot of people who worry about keeping off the radar. But the thing is, the radar is so inaccurate, it doesn’t matter. No one will find you because your address is wrong, your age is off by ten years, you live in a house you never owned at the opposite end of the state and have a phone number that was disconnected over a decade ago. Your email address belongs to an ISP that went out of business in 1992 and it is spelled wrong anyhow. I think you might be safer on the radar than off.

I’ve been blogging for a while now and I can’t figure out how to get my name back. I’ve put my name on Serendipity’s header and in the “About Me” section. I sign my name when I write to people. But it apparently doesn’t matter. I have become a teepee and a teepee I shall stay. A 12-foot teepee, which is the smallest possible teepee that isn’t a miniature. It’s probably appropriate on some Karmic plane.

So, consider this my official coming out party. My name is Marilyn Armstrong. I wrote a book titled “The 12-Foot Teepee” and my online ID is Teepee12 whether I like it or not. Marilyn Armstrong is not available and I would have to be MarilynArmstrong00054 or MArmstrong876987 or something and that sounds too much like an android or robot … so for the forseeable future, I am a Teepee.

Teepee12 to you.


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Fire At the Heart

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My teepee had a firepit. I lined it with fireplace tiles, then added a surround of old red brick. It was a big pit for a small teepee, but logs come in a lot of different shapes and it was easier to leave extra space to accommodate the bigger and odder-shaped pieces than try to figure out how to fit them into a smaller pit.

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It gets very cold in winter in New England. In the deepest part of the winter, with the temperature well below freezing and several feet of snow on the ground, I liked going out to my teepee to spend a few hours by a fire. It was the most peaceful, private place in the world, one of the few places I felt really relaxed and at peace.

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I learned to build a fire very fast. In fact, I got so I could get that fire going in less than a minute. Of course, that’s not counting however much time it took to bring in the logs and stack the fire properly so it would catch and burn properly.

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A teepee fire needs to be bright and hot so the smoke will go straight up the smoke hole. In essence, a teepee is a chimney with room for other stuff. If you build the pit and the fire correctly, there is very little smoke and a lot of heat.

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Once the fire was going, the teepee, which had a lining to help insulate it, got very warm. I often had to open the door and sit half in and half out because it was so warm inside. And no, despite crackling and sparks, the teepee doesn’t catch on fire. It looks like it will, but it doesn’t, though I wouldn’t leave a fire unattended. Then again, I won’t leave any fire unattended.

A fire in a teepee on a snowy night is magic.


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Winter Tipi

The fire was the heart of the tipi.

Fire is both light and heat. I built a great little fire pit in my tipi. When the fire was burning bright, it was all the light I needed. The peace I found quietly by the fire on winter nights in the tipi is impossible to exaggerate.

It seems impossible that you could safely have an open fire in a little 12-foot tipi, but it works beatufiully. If the flaps are set properly and the fire is high enough, you don’t need a chimney. The tipi is a chimney. Sparks can be startling since wood will pop and crackle, but the sparks flare out before they make contact with anything.

Even when it was bitterly cold and snowing outside, it was cozy and warm in the tipi, sometimes too warm. I had to open the door to let the cold air in. Sometimes, I sat half in and half out in the doorway because it was so warm … and this was the dead of a New England winter.

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There is something very soothing about a tipi. Is it the shape? Of maybe it was just that it was my own place that I had — with help — built. It’s the only thing I ever built. I was very proud of it.

I painted the tipi door from a design I found online. Not an exact reproduction. Not even close, but all thing considered, not bad.

I could light the fire in under a minute. When it’s zero and snowing outside, you have to be quick.

Native Commandments

Jasper Saunkeah, Cherokee

Treat the Earth and all that dwell thereon with respect.
Remain close to the Great Spirit.
Show great respect for your fellow beings.
Work together for the benefit of all Mankind.
Give assistance and kindness wherever needed.

Do what you know to be right.
Look after the well being of mind and body.
Dedicate a share of your efforts to the greater good.
Be truthful and honest at all times.
Take full responsibility for your actions.
Let us greet the dawn of a new day
when all can live as one with nature
and peace reigns everywhere.

Oh Great Spirit, bring to our brothers
the wisdom of Nature and the knowledge
that if her laws are obeyed
this land will again flourish
and grasses and trees will grow as before.

Guide those that through their councils
seek to spread the wisdom of their leaders to all people.
Heal the raw wounds of the earth
and restore to our soul the richness
which strengthens men’s bodies
and makes them wise in their councils.

Bring to all the knowledge that great cities
live only through the bounty
of the good earth beyond their paved streets
and towers of stone and steel.


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The 12-Foot Teepee

Once upon a time, I built a teepee. I painted the door and filled it with things I loved. I made the poles, sanded each by hand, peeling the bark from each 16-foot sapling we had cut in our own woods.

Then I wrote a book about building it, and about life, transformation, and other things, some funny, some sad, some just whatever.

The manuscript for The 12-Foot Teepee took me about 7 months to write, almost as much time to edit, then a few more months to design the cover and the book. Getting it published, well … that’s a whole other story.

In winter.

This was my teepee.

It stood, through all seasons for five years. This summer, the poles could no longer support the canvas, and the canvas itself was mildewed. Its time was over and it came down.

I don’t think there will ever be another. Building it was a rebirth. A physical teepee is nothing but a bit of canvas and sticks, the rest is spirit, love, and hope. I knew it could not last forever, and it lasted as long as any teepee could in this climate … especially since I left it up through the winter … but I miss it and always will. I had some of my best hours in my teepee … the only place in my world where I could always sleep.

My favorite time in the teepee was when the snow was falling and I was cozy by my fire. It was the most peaceful place in my world.

You can find the book on Amazon, both as a paperback and in Kindle format. It is “The 12-Foot Teepee,”  by Marilyn Armstrong. You can read excerpts from it online. Eventually I’ll post some pieces of the book here. Just not tonight.

My life has moved on considerably since then but writing it was a turning point in my life.

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