My Brain Has Gone Off-Duty
I feel like my brain is too tired to go on.
You know how you feel when your muscles have seized up and you simply can’t walk any further? That is how my brain feels. As if it has walked too many miles and it has had quite enough.
Too much thinking.
Too much planning.
Too much organizing.
Too many bizarre questions to answer.
Too many strange problems to solve.
Too many “on hold” phone calls with no return calls, disconnects, no doctor or practitioner to talk to.
Too many issues to deal with.
Too few answers to too many questions.
Today, I’m crabby, out of answers, and tired of being told to call some other (non-answering) number that will connect me with yet another person who thinks I should speak to the doctor but won’t connect me to him or a colleague.
So competition with my old zing? It isn’t working today. I lack any kind of zing and frankly, going into a long siege of competition to get hold of the doctor or ANY doctor, is more than I can handle.
I am going to make some coffee. Drink some coffee, and brood on why I hate this hospital, even though they are the nicest people in the world. Hard to be both, isn’t it?
You’d think that.
Stay cool is all I can say. There is always a solution somewhere, you just have to hope it arrives and it will eventually. Do what you want to do and not what the others want you to do.
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I’m just going to do the best I can. It’s frustrating, though. And I’m just too tired to keep pushing.
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I’m sorry you’re being shunted around like that. Frustrating and incomprehensible.
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It’s hopeless. I could really use a few minutes on the phone, but it isn’t going to happen.
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Time for a nap on that new mattress.
Leslie
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Garry hasn’t even gotten up yet. I guess last night’s medication finally got him some sleep. I don’t want to wake him if I can help it! He has been really tired.
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He needs to heal….
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I call it ‘paperjam’ when my brain just refuses to do it anymore. I hope it goes well for you, and I’m so glad he’s getting some needed sleep. I hope you can too.
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I think the sleep helped. He woke up more like someone I recognize. Also, much more alert.
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I’m very glad for you both. A partner’s health makes or breaks a lot of days.
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Your in so many places (headspace) at one time. Trying to keep everything in order, only to be shunted around when you require answers adds to the level of brain shut down. I’m sorry, Marilyn, it’s unfortunately how the “new” system works. No one to talk to that have the answers.
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I have to say for UMass, this isn’t all that new. They have always been utterly disorganized. So it the university. They have these ridiculous rules they put in place that just makes everything more difficult.
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I don’t know how they can keep anything straight, its beyond me!
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How about writing it down? That used to work for me.
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lmao, for me that would go without saying! First thought, not 10th or 12th haha. They put it in a computer, and name it, no one else knows what to look for, first last, requirement, doctor apt. time, etc etc. the list goes on god!
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Places with written schedules I THINK are usually more accurate. Yes, they all make mistakes, but it’s too easy to overwrite a computer entry.
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That’s the truth of it.
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I’ve been this way for the last ten years with random spurts of energy. Maybe we just need to rest when everyone believes we should be working or doing something.
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Usually, that’s what I do. But this was a complicated, busy week. There was NO way I could rest. This was all stuff that simply had to get done on schedule. So I did it. Now I’m taking it easy. Sometimes, you gotta do what you gotta do 😀
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Agreed.
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