What do I remember? What do I remember only in parts? Do I remember anything that didn’t happen?
It’s an interesting question. To the best of my understanding, I remember something or I have forgotten it. Some things I’m assured (by others) have happened, but I have no memory of them. There’s just a hole in my memory. I don’t remember being in that place or any of the things that supposedly happened. It remains an unsolved mystery.
Occasionally little pieces of the missing memories pop up for not obvious reason. Then, there are people who know me who I don’t recall. Mostly though, I don’t remember all of an event or activity. I remember pieces. The high points, so to speak. I forget the details, the numbers, the specifics. Some of the things I don’t clearly remember happened a long time ago.
I remember when I was in thirties, I wanted to get some information from my Aunt Kate who was the oldest of my mother’s sisters, close to twenty years older than my mother. She told me what she remembered, but then said: “You know, that was a really long time ago. Almost 75 years,” she pointed out. At the time, it didn’t mean that much to me but these days, it means a lot. I don’t remember much of my young childhood, partially because it was pretty bad on a lot of levels, but also because it was a very long time ago.
Sometimes, these days, odd memories from long ago times just pop out while I’m reading a book or watching a movie. Things I do not forget? Music. I remember all the piano pieces I ever played and if I played them a lot — for example for a performance — I can see the notes in my head. I have heard that when we are losing our minds, the very last thing we lose is music.
Trent suggested that we have a closeness with music that we can’t entirely explain. There is truth in that because when other memories are gone, music remains, including the ability to perform, to play an instrument, or sing or perhaps, both.
I would have no way to know if some of my memories are not real. How would I know that? If I think the memories are real, and no one else was there as a witness, how would anyone know?