I was outside yesterday cleaning the deck, making sure the birds had enough food to make it through dinner when I noticed the leaves on the aspen trees are turning bright yellow. They are always the first to change color. The rest of the foliage take a couple more weeks, but those early yellow leaves are a sure sign that fall, while not here yet, is on the way.
I can, from my front window, wee the speckling of bright yellow mixed with the deep green. Before I had a chance to enjoy summer, it’s gone. The world is spinning faster than I am!
You’ve got questions? I’ve got answers!
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Absolutely. I was such a chatterbox when I was younger. Now, not so much. Maybe I just used up all my words too soon and now, I’ve run out of them.
What does the world need less of?
Money. Greed. Stupidity. Brutish people who enjoy murder. Ineffectual leadership. But don’t worry. I think we are going to get rid of ourselves and that will solve OH so many problems!
Do you feel older or younger than your age?
Older. Right now? A LOT older.
What is a cause you’ll always passionately support?
The right of people to THINK for themselves. Which is not the same thing as the right to say any damn fool nonsense that falls into their brains. It’s a losing battle and one for which I’m losing the will to fight.
I’m tired. I look around me at what are left of my contemporaries. A few of them are still fighting, but most have given up. I don’t blame them. Here you are, in your 70s or 80s. You think you might like want a bit of relaxation. Peace. Have some fun and laugh about nothing important. Just enjoy that moment.
Instead, you find yourself up to your chin in the IDENTICAL aggravation you suffered through when you were 50 or more years younger.
Didn’t we do that already? Didn’t we win that one? Didn’t we pass laws? What happened to the laws we fought so hard for? How many times does one need to fight the same battles? Is there ever an actual WIN?
I don’t know about everyone else, but I’m weary. I’ve had a lifetime of this nonsense. I’ve fought for all the right things — and here we are. Again. Same issues, nothing settled, and obviously nothing is going to BE settled. We passed laws that are now being un-passed or simply ignored. If the law isn’t the law, then all of this effort is truly for nothing. What’s the point?
The fibromyalgia went away. Gone. No idea what made it happen or why it left. I’m just glad it’s gone.