Trying to get a loan to install a new boiler in this house ought to be easy. I’ve been paying off as many debts as quickly as anyone on social security can, but apparently not fast enough. Never mind that the money has almost entirely been spent trying to keep the house from falling apart.

What I don’t “get” is that this is a zero percent loan. They aren’t even paying out the money. National Grid is paying the money.

Also, It’s not a huge number. At zero percent, it’s easy to pay off. But they have a computer. When it dings, you’re donged.

So I have a choice: find a lender with a soul, or not pay my mortgage until I have saved up enough money, and then pray that the the bank will make a deal. Or we wind up on the street. I’m hoping we won’t wind up in the street because I don’t think we would last long. We’re a little old for that.

It’s ironic. We make too much money to get housing assistance, but NOT enough to really afford housing. Once more, we have fallen between the chairs.


However, you will have to forgive me if I’m not overly cheery. I’m scared. Somehow, I’ve always found a way to survive, no matter how bad things got, but it’s not looking good. But who knows? Maybe it will get better?

And you know? Today the daylilies bloomed and a tiny chipmunk made his way onto the feeder and nibbled at it. Everything is fine … except … it’s not.


Share Your World – 6-23-2020


Have you ever ‘dined and dashed” (i.e. eaten the meal and then run out the restaurant door without paying)?

No. Who does that?

Have you ever been in a car accident and either left the scene of the accident (providing it was a fender bender and not serious) or denied culpability for causing it when you did, (if it were minor or serious)?

No but I’ve been the recipient of that behavior not once, but at least half a dozen times. It isn’t okay, kids. Really, it isn’t.

(Oldie which has been asked many times before)   Have you ever found a wallet or purse or some money (over $20) in the street and just taken it, thinking ‘finders keepers, losers weepers?   Or would you be ‘good’ and hand it in?  

No. I once found a twenty on the street and gave it to a homeless guy.

What was the last thing you stole or shoplifted?   If you never ever considered doing that, tell us your secret! 

I think I was a young teenager. I took a  pair of undies, then I went and put them back. I’m not built for the criminal life. 🙂

I’m glad I’m not supposed to act happy or appreciative. I’m kind of miserable and don’t think I could come up with an answer.

CALLIOPE MUSIC – Marilyn Armstrong

I added some calliope music for the calliope enthusiasts (I am one!) and those who have never had the pleasure of hearing a real, old-fashioned steam calliope. Enjoy!


There is no music that makes me as nostalgic as a steam calliope. There are so few working calliopes remaining anywhere … if you get a chance to spend some time with one, don’t miss it! And if you play a keyboard, playing a calliope is just something else!